.

well, it's getting colder, and all i want to do is be able to sleep on a couch with her.

man. i won't have that chance soon. it's depressing to think there'll be around 630 miles separating us. i'm making the absolute most of the time we have left before she leaves. i love her so much. i wish so much that money wasn't tight and i could just pay that off and finalize this. i'm worried out of my mind that she'll find someone better. she tells me she won't. i know she loves me, but i'm still terrified. and i guess that's a good thing though. at least i'm not overly confident and conceited. i think if i wasn't scared, it'd be bad. but yeah. i've been praying for her so she'll have the strength she'll need. i love her. that's all that's been pressing on my mind as of late.

its been a while

and a lot's changed.

for the better i think.

the weather's cold, but our hearts have grown warmer.

life has slowed down as the temperature's dropped,

and i can now see the small things as they pass.

so beautiful, these small quiet moments,

together, apart, physically, it's the same.

she's in my heart. 

i lie awake in hers.

i hope that never changes.

it's those nights that i live for 

long talks on the pier,

losing ourselves in reflections.

i love her.