so this is summer

and i love it. i'm generally happier and more responsible than i've ever been. except, the drummer of my favorite band has apparently abandoned them. that's a real bummer, but i guess God's got a plan in here somewhere. idk. my conquests confuse me. why do i fall hardest for the girls not available? it's like some sort of twisted self torture. i know i can get mentally and personably clsoe to them without physicality complicating things, so i do, then i fall for them, and want that physicality, but can't bring myself to ask them to betray their men. but i still feel like a shitty person for hinting at that. which i should. i just wish i had more integrity.