i had a semi life changing experience today. for the worse immediately, but it'll be better for me in the end. i know. but my heart is burning. i want to just be able to hear her voice. to see her face. to touch her hand. no phone. no AIM. no email. no stickam. in person. to feel how she feels. to be around her. and the best thing is, this is only going to make that moment even better. the next time we see eachother. oh man. i'm so excited. she's the sweetest girl i've ever met. i mess things up, and she says she's going to be better for me. i couldn't even ever ask for that. for her to be better? i don't think there's much better she can be. she's been so amazing so far. but i know i'm going to do my best to be able to see her as soon and often as possible. and i'm going to cherish her presence even more. just to be around her. it's such a luxury. to hear her. oh man. i'm sick for this girl. really, and don't hear any infatuation being over indulged here.
I LOVE HER.
when the big thing happened, she was the only thing i thought of. that her presence would be taken away for a while, it killed me. that she'd have to miss me too, kills me still. but you know, for some reason, i really feel like she's been here with me. on my bike ride. at andrews. at home. i swear. i heard her voice on the road. i saw her when i walked in the bathroom. i can feel her head on my chest when i lay down. i'm so smitten. and i love that. well, i'm gonna go try to call her again. hopefully she's just asleep. and not worrying about me. i'm fine.
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